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Who am I 
What have I become
Is this real
Am I doomed like this
Will I ever have what I feel?

I can not give up
I can not
He’d die and I’d never let go

I can’t eat
I can’t sleep
I hate smiles
I loathe pleasure
Never works out

I’m broken, I lost

The Distance between us here is growing
and I’m clawing at the lid of my box
Either feels as torment 
or it can not feel

but really it does….. kind of

I’m the ostracized one
 “me and mine”

I want to kill
I want to scream
I’m angry at life
I’m in so much pain

The cracks in me have 
become wide long and restless

Alone here amongst many

A social front

A Lie

What am I?

Created on ... July 21, 2004